“Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and sustain me with a willing spirit.” Psalm 51:10, 12 (NASB)
I woke up and made my way into the kitchen ready to make coffee, pray and begin MY quiet time. I abruptly stopped in disbelief. How could this be? My son was sleeping on my couch instead of in his room. I half-heartedly flipped on the kitchen light and grudgingly scooped coffee into the pot. “Doesn’t he know MY day is planned? Doesn’t he know I get up early to have MY quiet time, MY God time? I can’t turn my radio on and listen to Christian music. My whole day is ruined.”
Do you ever have a day like this or is it just me? I have too many. Days where God gives me new opportunities to show love and how he has transformed my life. I seem to fail more times than I care to count. I fail because I center my day, my mood around ME. I crave that warm, fuzzy feeling. Reverse. Reverse. Reverse.
I should have begun the day on my knees before even making the coffee. I should have prayed not MY will Father but yours. I should have started the day by thanking God that my son was on my couch drug-free. I should have touched his sweet face with love.
My daily pursuit should not be to have a warm fuzzy feeling; my daily pursuit should be MY Heavenly Father’s presence. Warm fuzzy feelings are temporary and unreliable. God is always available; always reliable. His love is unchanging and lasting. I missed a God opportunity this morning. I missed a love opportunity this morning.
“Dear Heavenly Father, I know you are continually refining me, but it seems that I always find a way to miss an opportunity to show your love to others. My desire is to be a woman of kindness and compassion. Help me to respond to others in love and to have a willing heart to hear your voice and receive the joy that you so freely give. In your sweet, awesome name, Amen.